being an introvert
Believe it or not, it turns out I’m an introvert. I have suspected this for a very long while, but I finally came to the realization a few days back. I was having lunch with an amazing person I admire, and she said I reminded her of “Wednesday”, the character from the Netflix show lols. It was because of one of many comments she had heard me say; the one that day was, “I really don’t like people” because the place was jampacked. I do like people; I just get anxious when there are toooooo many people in one place; it gets me over the edge. This means I don’t do shopping unless it’s online, don’t go to busy restaurants, and will never line up at an airport; this last one is costly, lols.
The other sign is I get really tired after spending time with the people I like or love. I miss them, I go to see them, and an hour later, I would think of reasons to leave and return to my comfy place. I’m trying to overcome this by staying longer and outside my comfort zone. The last thing that got my attention is that I would rather be alone at home every chance I can get than be outside doing anything. I do dread leaving my house. My favorite part of life, even when I had a full-time job (even though I had much fun at work), was to get home; once I was home, I would do things that interested me.
To summarize, I can’t stand crowded places or too many people; I can’t spend too much around the people I love to the point my older brother once told mum that if I can’t cope with him being at my place once a week, how am I ever going to put up with a husband lols, and I know that I enjoy my own company over anyone else hahaha I sound like I’m full of my self.
Yet somehow, I work in events, where you are sounded by people and work around the look to ensure everything is going smoothly. The human psyche is surprising; it’s like being a chameleon; when I’m at work, I’m this funny person everyone enjoys talking to, and as soon as work is over, I’m back to being me. I’m not putting on a face; I promise it just happens. I was analyzing the change in my personality, seeing how I was an extreme extrovert and what had changed me. I realized maybe its that the fact that I became a workaholic, and with that comes the fact that you are in constant communication with people 24/7; that is why I treasure whatever time I have to myself. I will let you know once my psychologist and I figure it out, but apparently, many people like me are out there, and I wonder how they cope.
As we approach the new year, let’s hope it’s a bright and joyful year for everyone. And all we introverts have a fun, interesting time that suits us without anyone judging us, lols. And that we do enjoy our activities similarly to extroverts; that is all I’m saying.
