Loving the wrong people

Life taught me a very important lesson, not that I didn’t know before, and I thought I was immune to finding myself in these situations again. I put up walls a long time ago, to protect myself from letting people in, I thought they were tight and I was safe. When I was young before life taught me valuable lessons. I had a few acquaintances I thought were friends, and when life presented us with situations that tested the relationships, it became very clear that they were not good people.

Since then, I have become emotionless in the face of anyone and anything life throws at me. But then the few friends I had, started telling me that this was not a way to live and I should let people in, even if it meant heartache, as it’s a way to learn lessons and grow. I still have big trust issues, but I started doing just that. Now, I don’t regret it, and it has brought some amazing people into my life that have helped me in so many ways.

But then, there are the odd ones; I’m not talking about people you are in love with; I’m talking about people you love and would go out of your way to help and support with anything they need without asking for much in return. Then suddenly, one day, you wake up, and they have done a 180, something you never expected, especially since you have not harmed them in any way. What do you do then? Dwell on that? Doubt yourself? just move on and let bygones be bygones?

Since that has recently happened to me, I have decided that first, I will not let that change me as I’m one of the nicest people (lols, I have been told that, not singing my own praises), and I treat everyone with respect. Second, I have enough people who I know for a fact that will never change me; no matter what, they are more than enough for me. And Finally, whoever doesn’t value me for who I am doesn’t have a place in my life; I’m not going to waste my energy on them. That is all I’m saying.